(:

'Cuz Baby, You're a Firework! ♥ :-D

Sweet Taste of Mistakes

Okay, I was having second thoughts. I was freaking out! And still.

I mean, after a few brainwash, it got me thinking. Hard. This feeling, it's a sign.

"Okay yes, it's a mistake. I know it's a mistake. But there are certain things in life where you know it's a mistake but you don't really know it's a mistake because the only way to really know it's a mistake is to make the mistake and look back, and say, "Yeap. That was a mistake." So really, the bigger mistake would be not to not make the mistake, because then you go your whole life not really knowing if something is a mistake or not."

Does this make any sense to you?

And guess what, I always careful with everything. I plan out every second of my life. I'm done trying to plan the unplannable. Search for perfection. Always want to control everything. Get things well planned. Because I want everything to be perfect. MISTAKES-FREE. I'm afraid of mistakes. I hate regretting. Guess, I just don't have the guts. God, I am so terrified of anything real!

But, I've changed my mind.

I don't want perfect.

Maybe it's a mistake.

But it's a mistake I have to make.


*finger cross*

Dear, Bob Bob.

HAPPY 2-MONTHS ANNIVERSARY, BOB BOB!!

I love you, and still counting ;)

I Wasn't ready, And I Never Will.

There goes my first paper, Bel311. Sumpah seronok menggoreng!! But hell no, I wont check my carrymarks. =B Next one will be CTU271, this Saturday. *yawnn

(Please remember what you wanted to write, Illy!)

Oh, I've changed. A lot, if you're still wondering. I guess, this college stuffs do changed me into a better person (ceh!). But it's true. Finals have started. I ain't ready for that, and I never will. *sigh* Guess I have to start reading CTU by now, but the mood isn't on the way yet. Maybe tonight. (I hope) Well, there so much in the box right now. Too much to write, I supposed. Until I barely know where to start. Everything seems like falling apart when people don't really relized a shit about it. It's a different world now. Turned out I may hate it. Man, I hate this feeling. I just can't bear with it. Or am I having some kind of hormones changes right now?? Is it possible for a 19 y'o girl? (Omg, you're turning into LAME!) Like what I said earlier, there's so much in my mind, so much to write. I guess I wasn't very happy with lots of stuffs these days. And don't ask why. I don't even know. I don't have the answer. Oh, God. Oh, it may sounds crazy, but I do talk to Illy for like, every single day? Whatever shit that coming right up through your mind now, but I actually enjoying it! Why? Because no one can understand me better than myself, right? I guess, the same thing does happen to you too. Correct me, if I'm wrong. Well, I hate myself for each time I sit down and look back. Ouch. Yeah, still. Oh, fuck. Whatever. Ignore me. Maafkan saya.

And it hurts when your own friend thinks that you are no longer a virgin. Oh, FYI, I'M STILL A FREAKING VIRGIN. Jot it down, people. In case you will be having this Alzheimer somewhere near in the future later. I may be a little childish, but I ain't stupid.

Too bad for the rest of the circle. My mood wasn't in a very-good-shape in this bloody semester. I lose my focus. Yet, I'm loosing my grip. Give me a break. I'll be back.



For good.

Cheesy Cheesy

Once upon a time, there was a big girl, still thinks that she was still a little girl, live in a big giant bricks called HOSTEL. She was a type that you can describe as a young happy-go-lucky person, hot tempered, nor cold-hearted. She might be twisting your head, with her annoyingness and madness. She ain't crazy or nuts, but she's everything in between. She can twist her tongue that so far, nobody can do like what she does. She's weird, and always be. She loves to be strange, but nothing on her that people see is strange. Therefore, she just another human, a normal girl with an extraordinary mind.

In the HOSTEL, she has three roomates but she has only one favourite of all called Munki. One day, Munki left the room early in the morning because Munki has a final presentation to do. So, she woke up alone and this is what she did.

Say CHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESE!!

She has another friend called, Aceyy. Aceyy accompanied her for the whole day, while Munki was outside doing her presentation. And there she lived, happily ever after.

The End. (:

Hari Sabtu Saya :-D

Hari ini, kawe kecek Melayu, deh? Haha! Awal-awal pagi lagi, Ieka sudah SMS. "Aku dah cuti, kau?" Meaning to say, ehem, maksudnya, dia ajak dating la tu. Weee!

So, ehem. Jadi, kami pun bertolak ke Sunway Pyramid sajo. Agak terbakar poket hari ini dek musim SALE dah expired. Tapi sebab kempunan, beli sajo mano yang mampu. Campur duit bagi pinjam, makin terbakar lah purse, ehem, dompet mewah tu. Tapi Yangyang panggil murtabak! Hmmphh!! Tebal macam murtabak katanya. Hmpphh!!

Oh, Ieka baru balik roadtrip ke Penang bersama teman-teman MSU nya. Agak terharu bila dia kata, "Aku ada belikan kau something! Sumpah comel!," sambil megeluarkan tiga batang pensil. "Bafak comel!! Kulit binatang mana kau siat?! Sumpah comel!!," sahut aku.

Agak lama lah tak jumpa batang pensil. Tapi, kalau sampai kat tangan, pensil tak jadi pensil dah. Pensil letaknya di kepala. Buat sanggul :P

Then, ehem. Kemudian, kami merayap cari spare-part baby baru Shamil. Nama dia Fixie. Tino ko jate? Kawe pon dok tahu. Demo fikir sendiri la deh? Agak memusing juga 3 kali dekat SS15 dan akhirnya kami end up, ehem, (berakhir?) di kedai basikal Seksyen 7. Seksyen 7 sangat sunyi lah. Serammmmmmmm!

Harini dindin, ehem, makan malam, Mama masak pasta. Nyum nyum! Dekat kampus kata, balik rumah baru diet. Kat kampus tak boleh diet, we need energy! Dekat rumah kata, jarang dapat makan free. Sedap pula tu. Wajib bedal!

-___________________-"

Macam tu lah cerita budak kolej. Sampai bila pun tak diet.
Seperti yang pernah di-quote-kan oleh Munki,
"Hot hot Chicken Shit!".

Sekian, wassalam. (:


Ini Shamil. Dia rasa rambut dia cantik.

It's been awhile, ayy 550D? tskk..tskk T-T

This is Arif, dulu pendek sekarang galah.

Membawa Madam BB (Bajet-Besar) jalan-jalan.

Thanks Ieka!! :D

Cute is DEAD.

Emily the Strange came to life in the early 1990's and quickly became a beloved counterculture icon all around the world. In her earliest years, she was a quiet but sharp-witted stranger, slinging philosophy and cultural observations in a series of hand-screened t-shirts and stickers. As her presence grew and became a standard in the cultural underground, Emily's own story began to emerge in a series of gift books, then comic-books and graphic novels, and now a novel series for young adults.

Today, Emily continues to be a voice for individualism and self-awareness, and her appeal is especially strong among alternative-minded young women and girls who identify with her signature singularity. Her presence in the worlds of art, pop culture, literature, and fashion celebrates non-conformist and reminds us all to cultivate that which makes us unique.

Emily is: An Artist, A Dreamer, An Inventor, A Scientist, A Skater, A Rocker and An Individual!

Emily's not your average thirteen year-old-girl. Pink is her worst nightmare...she wears the same black dress every day. She loves math and science. Her best friends are her four BLACK CATS! She's into old rock & punk, but also digs newer bands like My Chemical Romance (BTW, Gerard Way is featured in her Dark Horse comic book, "Revenge at Last!") Emily is so anticool she's cool... a subculture of one, and a follower of no one but herself.

Designers including Jean-Paul Gaultier, Valentino and Marc Jacobs have paid tribute to her, but she doesn't care! Emily wants you to be yourself, think for yourself, and DO IT YOURSELF!

Source: emilythestrange.com

P/S: I just 100% fully mesmerized by her. She's my favourite since I was in school! She's the greatest trouble-maker, a dreamer and a link to the stranger in the society. I used to buy a lot of Emily's stuff, even my first boyfriend called me EmILLY. (so perasan-ted lah this girl) So he got me this one Emily keychain, and I was so damn freakingly happy just because of a keychain. It may sounds silly, but hey, it's Emily. Who cares!

Now since the Kiss shop has been shut down, it got me stop buying those stuffs. I find it cool with the way she brought up herself, play tricks on people, with her posse of four bad kitties- Sabbath, Nee Chee, Mystery and Miles, Emily the Strange is the graphic voice for who search to be lost. I just amazed by the way she is. By being lost is her way of rejecting popular trends while transcending them. She just doesn't seem to care what people think and loves everything goes her way. I repeat, GOES HER WAY (: Well well well, now it explains a lot then.


She is anti-cool, a subculture of one, and a follower of no one but herself. Yet, she never get in trouble though, because she never get caught! Likewise, her products push the limits of process, structure, and graphic design. She may seems like a small rock-gothic girl, but she's more than that. She rocks my socks off hard, but I just can't afford to subscribe all the novels. Plus, I won't read. But I think it's cool to have one! Heh!

Still in zhe bucket list of MUST HAVE!
(eventhough I failed in strumming)

Daddykinsssss!! I want one!! x))



Have a heart, will you? :O

Is It Fair Enough?

As I was busy cleaning up the room, I found my old phones. Reminds me of the clips. Pretty interesting. Well, for you who don't know, basically, I enjoy recording any phone calls from my boyfriend. Never failed to make my day. So, I played some from Twinkle Twinkle Little Star, Kiss Me, to 'Janganlah record, stop it!'

Auwww.. Memories.

But memories, stay there.

Yesterday is History, tomorrow is a Mystery.

But today is a Gift. That is why it is called Present.(:

"Fair doesn’t mean that everyone is treated the same, but that everyone gets what he deserves and needs," found it somewhere in wordpress. It got me thinking. So, how come, you are saying life is unfair, when it doesn't. I might say my posts quite sound corny in some ways, but whatever. Who asked you to read, anyway. Haha! :P But, is it? Answer me! Thank you. My knowledge is limited, as I'm still in Stage 5 (refer Psychology, Chapter 10) when I'm still having the Psychosocial Crisis, where the Identity versus Role Confusion begins. Well, the blog will keep on proceed as long as I'm still breathing. So, I'll just flow, and learn. We'll see how things will change my perceptions. Heee.

"Sometimes, we don't actually get what we want, or who we like. But sometimes, the one who we don't bother to know, is someone who will stand by your side and make the rest worth fighting for,"

Well, I might agree with that thou ;)





While I was trembling in the dark, he came.





Auwwwww (((:




Hush darla, is it fair enough to you?



I'll say, "Yes, it is," (:


Great friendship and beautiful lovestory.
I just couldn't ask for more.

Thanks for coming into my life, people.
And oh oh oh oh!!

I love you, AfiqSyakirPandaSepet! (:

Caught in Green!

Oh, you don't know how much I enjoy being Vain. Haha!!

October 20, 2010.

Today, I had lunch with Addeena Zainal. Weeee! Fillet-o-fish with iced-lemon-tea. Its been awhile, ayy McD? Later me and Shamil went to the mall, searching for hardisk, oh MAHAL. Nevermind, I'll get one in Sg Wang later.

Kak, nak drive..pleaaase.

Tak boleh! Gile ke?

Pleeease nak merasa. Drive kereta orang sudah, kereta sendiri belum.

Nu'uh. Abah said cannot!

Angah dah drive kembara, myvi, hammer pun dah! Boleh punye.

No way!! Kakak tamau mati lagi!! Nak raye!!

Pleeeeeeeease...

Kejap je!

I Love You!

*Kakaknya tersipu-sipu**

I Love You! (sambil tersengih dengan besi di gigi)

Diam ah. Drive je.

Heheheheaaaahahaha!!!


A few minutes later..


Angah, nak stop kat Laman!!

Nak buat ape?

Nak tangkap gambar!!

Yea yea.

Yeay yeayy!! I Love You back! Eeeeeee!! :D


A while later,..


Kak, jum blah. >;I

Kenapaaa.. :(

Guard tu asyik swit swit je.

Dekat siapa?

Dekat bibik-bibik tengah jalan tu tak pun dekat angah.

Dia gay ke?

Ye la kot, blah jom.

:(( Yelah yelah.

A day with the brother. Honestly, I almost had my heart attack for the whole time I was in the car. Serious tak tipu. Syukur alhamdulillah, we got home safely. WEEEEE! :D

I'm Okay (-:

Oh oh once again, we've done it!! Our presentation for Psychology was once again, hit the spot!! Would like to give out my gratitude to the groupmates; Zaza, Hanan and Zackry. Sayang korang! EEEEEEEEE :D But sadly, our reports seems not quite hit the target. We lost 0.75 marks on the reports. Which makes us the second highest so far. But yeah, Hanan suruh bersyukur kan. Alhamdulillah..
-.-

Well, just reached home last night. And Sayang, I'm so so sorry for the verysuperextremely short date. Will be heading back on Monday, as you wish. (:

Oh oh oh oh oh oh at last. I met my 550D back! Yeay! Adeel, if you're reading this, I hope you keep your promises. Don't lie to my girlfriend. Remember what you've told me? Never betray your partner? Hope you keep that in mind. And send the baby back, please for God's sake.

Got nothing to report today.

Oh, I woke up at 8 in the morning.
What a miracle, huh? :P

Hello Sweet 21! :-D

Waktu susah, kita makan bersama.

Waktu senang, kita posing bersama.

Tak kira lautan api mahupun ketulan iceberg menjadi rintangan,
Kemarau panjang atau musim tengkujuh yang melanda,
Tak kan reput si Botak dalam ingatan.
(BHAHAHAHAHAHAHHH!!)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MAZHAR QUSYAIRY!!
MAY YOU HAVE ALL THE BEST
THE WORLD HAS TO OFFER!!
AND MAY ALLAH (S.W.T.)
BLESS YOU ALWAYS, MY FRIEND :-D

This Is Why I Love Psychology (:

"Don't love someone because they're beautiful.
But they're beautiful because you love them,"

- Miss Rosalynn,2010.

Dinner Kungfu :-)

Dindin has been great. Yangyang asked for a dindin, Adie asked for a dindin, Munki asked for a dindin. Auwwww. I'm touched :') But I chose to dindin with Yan and Munki, as Yan want to settle up her Nazar. Free dindin for tonight! YIPEEE!! :D

I'm bored. And there was a webcam. *giggle*

Oh well, just got a phone call from Shamil.
New girl, huh?
Tahniah lerr.

New Fixie, huh?
Fakk you!

Congrats for the new girl, brotha. Semoga panjang jodohnye. HAHA! :D Oh, do stop by at his Flickr!! Thank you :D I wonder what happened to my DeviantArt. Should I delete it or not? Hmm. -.-

Goodbye KOKO, Hello Miserable.

Yesterday a.k.a. October 12, 2010 was the very last day of our KOKO!! YAHOO! It's been 3 bloody semesters, man! At laaaaaaaaast! :D Akhirnya, berakhir sudah azab 3 semester di padang kawad. Alhamdulillah. Moga moga tak kena repeat :P

End of KOKO. Let's move on to the next point.

Thought I got a bit of a break when I'm done with my hell of Storyboard. Today, we had our Storyboard Evaluation Session. Instead of just making us stomach-cramp, the session also got me shaking til the class ended. He told us he'd never give any of his students above 27 out of 30 yet. Frankly, 30 is what usually people are hoping for. And Ejat got 29 for his project. CONGRATS! ((:

Later on, after Sir told us some of the marks, it's completely negating any happiness I was beginning to feel. To be honest, I was sure I had done awful. I wasn't confident about my storyboard at all, I knew from the start, but still, deep down inside, I was still hoping for a good marks. But even still, thinking about that how much that I've got is like getting punched in the gut. I've got mine between 20-25. Fuck.

Eventhough I didn't failed the subject, but still- it seems like a BIG FAILURE to me. I knew this would turn out like this, thought that I could handle it, but I was wrong. But I wasn't trying very hard then, so, I think I get what I deserved. Needless to say, I left class feeling completely and utterly defeated. Thinking of crying to Munki, but seemed like she's currently busy with her BEL Drafts. Maybe I need something to be punched. -__-"

But I try to not to get into the mood any deeper as I still have another 2 assignments to be submit on this Friday which is Journalism Report and Psychology Report &; Presentation. GODD!! I have to get my work done and then I decided I had better make time to settle down because I don't know if you know this or not, but it's super hard to get anything done when you're all weepy and down on yourself. But I have to. By Monday, I'll be going back to Shah Alam for a week. It doesn't take much to get me down, but it doesn't always take much to get me happy again, either.

I failed.

And I feel ugly.

Uglier than your fucking ass.

Thank you.

Delish Xpress!

I miss all the disney parties.
I miss all the high school stuffs.
So the drama.

College.
I'm having the time of my life.
Yet, the ordinary teenage chums never failed me.


Dramas. It never ends.


Oh, things started nicely today, and slowly, it turned out great! Our Graphic Design presentation about our product, called Delish Xpress Butter Stick, was a blast!! And I mean it!! ;) Plus, the lecturer doesn't give any critics on my design, which is - the Magazine Cover. Hoorayy! :D

Btw. Great job, people.

My Empire State of Mind

Each time when I see any lecturers carrying a massive tack of papers, that's when I realized, oh-I'm on exams! Literally, I never take any of my exams seriously. *Jangan dipraktikan!* Instead, I take my assignments SERIOUSLY SERIOUS. Don't mess with it or else I'll get the hell out from it.

So far, I never fail any paper except for Addmath- back then when I was in highschool. Thank God, I dropped the subject when I was in Form 5. I love math as well as science. But not too additional. I hate when I have to get all my focus on one subject. I get bored too fast. I love to mingle. I'm not a person who does all the studies and such. Nu'uh. Don't have the time to spend all my time only on one subject. That sucks! But I spent the whole class distracted, worrying about my grade, each time the lecturers/teachers holding all the marks or passing the papers back. *sigh*

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Generally, I'm kind of an emotional roller coaster. It doesn't take much to get me down, but it doesn't always take much to get me happy again, either. I can always count on sugar-taking to cheer me up when I've had a bad day. Or to make my day better when I've had a good one. Coke, in particular, always seem to hit the spot.

Time passing by. Slowly, I'm getting weaker and weaker everyday. I don't know how long am I gonna last. Ain't no strong as those days. Ain't no hyper like those days. Coke isn't the solution anymore. Painkiller NEEDED. Day by day, I get exhausted quicker than before. Guess, my time is running out. It has been almost a month without any medical suppliments. I am no failure. I hate to be weak. But some stuffs get me well annoyed.

Sounds like dying, huh? Ha Ha. Well, I'll passed.

I had my Munchy's and some plain water for my breakfast. Still on exhausted mode. Yesterday, we hit Ayer Keroh. Got Part6 event as well as Part3 Photo Gallery. Basically, the Photo Gallery booth pinned up all Part3's photos with the theme "Rumah Tradisional", and mine also included! According to Masscomm YDP himself, "the Photo Gallery was a success and I'm really impressed by that" , as one of the Photographer from NSTP just can't stop talking and praising the booth. Way to go, Adie! :)

7 more days and we'll be welcoming the 9-days-StudyWeek, and soon, hello Finals!

"We make our own fortunes. And then call them fate. And what better excuse to choose a path than to insist it's our destiny. But at the end of the day, we all have to live with our choices. No matter who's looking over our shoulder,".

I may get annoyed easily nowadays. Sorry for my behavior. Maybe I'm a bit depressed or annoyed with all the assignments, but still, I have to deny it. I still have my professionalism. I don't care if you still have it or not. Just don't start the fire. Or get the bitch out of me.

I am real. Say whatever you want. It's my prerogative.

Love Me (:

"Love me, Love me.

Say that you love me.

Fool me, Fool me.

Oh how you do me.

Kiss me, Kiss me.

Say that you miss me.

Tell me what I wanna hear.

Tell me you love me," ♥

KOMED Raya 2010

KOMED RAYA LAGI! & DEAN'S LIST CEREMONY
Psycho psycho :D

People (:

Say hello to Oxford!! ;DD

Camwhores ;D

Baby Baby Baby Baby, I am annoying. Ngaaa~ :D





P/S : It was a major success, Adie.
Great event. Congratulations, Mr. YDP! :D